The "Real" story...

Let me start by saying I'm not sure what's up with Blogger, but some of my functions have been taken away....seems like something was updated a few months back and it's still not right. So sorry in advance for the lack of "creativity" b/c I just haven't taken the time to figure it out. If anyone can offer some IT advice, that would be helpful :-) Ok...onto the meat. So as usual, I've been a slacker at this blog thing. It's not b/c of all the excuses that I've made up in the past ( we'll maybe just a few) but I'm just feeling out this whole blog thing. You can see somewhat of who's looking at your stuff, but not specifics..as in who they are. I don't have a problem with this...as long as no one is taking our family photo's and using them inappropriatley...know what I mean. I look at many blogs and I have no clue who some of these folks are, but I enjoy reading about their crazy lives too! I know...I'm rambling today, sorry. So I've had a lot to post about, but wasn't sure what kind of vulnerabilty I really wanted to open myself up to out here. Plus, this "journal" is a keepsake for our family and quite frankly it's not always gumdrops and rainbows. I'm not going to come on here and be "Debbie Downer" all the time, but I think it's note worthy and theraputic to share trials and tribulations. What if someone else is having a bad day/week/month, etc... and really needed to know that everyone else is not perfect. let's face it, our kids aren't always little angels...nor are we adults! So TODAY...I'm keepng it real. Leave NOW, if you don't want to hear it! I've been in a FUNK and I'm having a hard time coming out. So much has been going on. This is my favorite time of year and I don't want to feel yuck, I want to have fun and bake and decorate ( and yes, I'm going to do all of that!) Let me start by just letting you all in on a few secrets..that ain't secrets anymore! My job has not been going so hot, and I've been very stressed about that. Most of you know that I'm a medical coder and I work from home. I used to have lots of flexibility and now alot of that is changing. I've been blessed to do this for 6 years now, however, with Greg's fire schedule, one of us HAS to be flexible. We haven't quite figured out a solution to this yet, so please pray for that situation. I know alot of people have no choice, but Greg and I both feel really stongly about one of us being here at home with our kids afterschool...just being present. Will has started preschool full-time and he's having a hard time adjusting. Ideally, he really needs a part-time program. THis is where I worry sometimes about sharing b/c I know everyone has a different opinion about this topic...I know many kids go to daycare all day long and turn out just fine...Madi did...but do I regret that time I missed with her at a young age..YES. Can I go back, NO. I struggle with this ALL the time. The other side of me says " Hello, there are bills to pay!". Here's the BIG BOMB...so if you haven't heard, for quite sometime, Greg and I have been in the process of adopting a child. We are still in our homestudy phase if you know anything about adoption. THis has been a gut wrenching, tear-jerker, stay awake at night, stress some more process and we're not even matched with a child child yet. Let's just say our feet are barely wet. I'm being totally honest, it's scary. However, there will be more post to come about this. I just needed to tell you so you could pray for us. We are confussed and scared many times, but we really just want to follow God's leading for our life and our family. We are NOT in control, God is. I don't know how all of this is going to play out or if it's really going to come to fruition, but we're trusting in him to guide us...God: if this is where you want us, open up the doors, if NOT, please close them. That's been our prayer and it still is. We just don't know. Like I said, there is SO much I could post about this, but I promise I'll talk more about it soon. We actually have another social worker visit this weekend...this is #3 out of 4. So to say that I've been a little stressed is an understatement! I'm a natural born worrier and I can't help it...I worry about everything! This creates anxiety for me and it's been "OFF THE HOOK". Another problem...I know, I'm full of them and I warned you!! I've had high blood pressure for years...this was one of the many reasons I decided to have gastric bypass ( I'll do a whole post about that one day!) and yes, I've lost over a 100lbs but my blood pressure has raised it's ugly head again. I'm having trouble regulating it...it goes from high to low, etc.. And well, the anxiety makes it worse! I know, I'm just a mess!! I've been in close contact with my doctor, and things are starting to settle down, but please pray for re-newed strength and health. I think I've shared all of this in order to ask for prayers and second, you never know what someone else has going on. Somebody can look great on the outside but have so much going on inside. I'm totally ok and the old me would have NEVER shared this b/c I want you to think that I'm superwoman...but I'm not....no one is and that's ok. DO the best that YOU can do, don't worry about who's doing what. Do what works for your family. We all have a tendency to place this little thing called "comparison" on ourselves. God has given us all different gifts for a reason. I know that God wants what's best for all of us, we just have to submit our lives to him. Ask him for guidance, surround yourself with good people and everyting else will fall into place. I started a prayer journal this morning and I can't tell you how good it felt to actually write my request and concerns down on paper to GOD. You should try it. Smile, call an old friend, send a text...do something little for someone today...you never know what may be going on inside. If I can EVER pray for any of you ( whoever you are reading!!) and you don't feel comfortable leaving a message on the blog, just send me an e-mail: kmfisher109@gmail.com Keeping it Real! Kyla

Happy Birthday to.......

Will!!! Actually it was yesterday...when I wrote this and I'm just now getting around to attaching pictures!! Better late than never! So here you go Will! We can't believe you are 3!! Willie, You have taught us SO much in your short 3 years. We don't take a single day for granted. On the way to school this morning, your sister prayed the sweetest prayer thanking God for bringing you into this world! We knew you were fiesty from day one and we all spoil you rotten....we can't help it! Your big eyes and long eyelashes melt everyone's heart. You have amazed us this year with all you have acomplished and we know that God has big plans for you!! You make us laugh all the time playing pirates and the funny things you randomly say! You're a picky eater and I'm totally not use to that as your sister eats everything! I was shocked when you wouldn't eat spaghetti the other night! You have a sweet tooth and you LOVE suckers...the blue one's to be exact!! You are ALL BOY! Jumping on the trampoline is one of your greatest pleasures......boy do we get our exercise with you! There is NEVER a dull moment and we wouldn't have it any other way! Happy Birthday Wonder Will!! We LOVE you more than you can imagine!!